I've wondered a lot now, if what I feel is right. Is it childish to assume that my happiness is shared, and that what I see as a beautiful and happy, priceless memory, is cherished in the same way by you? I believe now that.. What I believe shouldn't be doubted. I wondered for a long time now whether I was just being a hopeless dreamer, who dreamed of having such a big, warm, welcome family. Of having someone who cared so much for me, and loved me endlessly. I know I feel that way, though. I felt guilty for it too. Why should I bother someone so much, and think about someone so much? Wouldn't they be bothered?
I can't say I don't feel like I'm not a bother anymore. No matter how doubtful I get though, my love can never be snuffed out, no matter who it's for. I'm beginning to become hopeful again, and cheerful again, and I love it.

Thank you so much, to everyone. To Yoshiki, for your cheerful cat-smile that's so contagious, and beautiful, honest words. To Toshi, for being there for him, and for returning to everyone. To X, and all of the fans, for welcoming me so warmly, and for all of the support and wonderful times. My family, for supporting me even if you can't do it with such perfection that X can--you try, and that, I've learned, is enough. To Sugizo, and Miyavi, and my drum teacher Mr. Manring for offering your faith, your ideas, and listening ears, as well as amazing experiances. To Hideto Matsumoto, for teaching me true love, true loss, true regret, and true tears. I still miss you, even though I never really knew you-- but I do, don't I? To Ryan, for sticking with me when I was so childish. I'm deeply sorry-- I still don't have the courage to tell you to your face. To tell you at all. To Roseline and Beth; I learned what an idiot I was. To Eva, for staying with me, supporting me, loving me, and being yourself. I wouldn't have you any other way, neh?

And yes, even to you, the reader! Whether your reading this because you know me from my writing, you know me personally, or you ARE one of these people (Eva! I see you!!), thank you so much. Everyone I've met has helped me in some way (even the complete asses in some minor way) and I'm grateful for it.
Kaitlyn

Love Letter:

Title: Tough Love
Author:  therapydotai
Rating: Near the edge of PG-13
Warnings: rope is mentioned but not used and some shoving/pushing [fighting], suggestiveness
Band/Pairings: S.K.I.N.  Sugizo x Gackt
Disclaimers: Don't own Sugizo or Gackt
Summary: After a year of waiting, Sugizo decides to confront Gackt about never having their first kiss.
Comments: While this is suggestive I don't think it warrants the R rating... tell me if I'm wrong? Anyways this is how I think Gackt would deal with loving such a masculine man like Sugizo. -snicker- Never deal with it...